What's Holding Me Back?

Friday, October 9;

We're nine days away from the Hopper Challenge. That means the training at CFOT is turning into high gear. Jerry's giving our small, but fierce Hopper challenge crew a big push. In turn we should be pushing as well. If that's the case, then what is holding me back. We had a nasty little workout this morning. Short enough that it is possible to push hard, but technically difficult enough to test your abilities. Instead of flying through the workout, I went slow and steady. Probably too slow. I could probably have shaved 5 minutes off of my time. I never used to workout like this, so it makes me wonder what has changed?? I've pinpointed three different aspects.

Fear:
I think the major culprit here is fear. I am afraid to push too hard, because I don't want to hurt myself again.

Change of mindset:
I used to want to win at all costs. I'd push so hard just because I didn't want anyone else to finish before me. That was a great mindset to have, but with that mindset I also tore my shoulder apart. Is that better? I wish I could get parts of that mindset back, but I can't convince myself it's worth the injury.

Strength:
I've just lost strength that I haven't gotten back. I'm stronger than ever in certain areas, but I still have some significant weaknesses to work around. My lack of strength slows me down as well.

Any suggestions on working around these issues, or capitalizing on these in order to improve performance?

WOD:
7 Rounds
3 Deadlifts: 185lb
6 Lou Burpees (two pushups per burpee)
9 C 2 B pullups (we learned I have to do these underhanded)

Total: 21:??